keje + mata katak ---> =(

Tuesday morning.. bnyi jam beberapa kali, matikan balik.. then btol2 tejaga. mama kejut swuh bgn sbb mau daku g keje awal sket arini. bj dh siap iron dr mlm td. tp, sgt berat nk bgn dari katil. wish dat it's still nite.. xmo kua g mana2. peluk erat my bantal tdo like i'll never ever let it go.. damn. i'm so sad. really really sad.. like last nite tears tied me hard with my pillow. why all dis things happen to me? again n again.. rasa sgt xbermaya oke. mood mmg xde langsung. senyum mmg palsu arini. last nite, before i sleep, not as usual. i miss dat voice. i really do. dis morning.. especially bila dh smpi ofis. normally i'll call him or he call me. just to let each other know dat we are arrive at da office safely.. miss dat voice badly.. da normal voice of him. da sweet n tender one. i need some strenght. i must be taf enuf to face all dis. once again. why me? how can i proof it. every single things, every single words.. honestly, i'm lost in this space. this situation, just like i'm back to year 2004.. dear God, please make things easy for me.. ** ~~ i'm just totally speechless.. don know wut to say. dunno wut to do.. ~~ **